I’m making an appointment to go see my doctor for a physical today. That’s saying a lot because I don’t like going to the doctor, at all. Two reasons: I’ve always had a weight problem and I’m afraid they will find something wrong with me. I would always get the lecture about my weight, so I did something about that in 2003. I’ll blog about that on another post. Friday I felt like crap, I couldn’t stay cool, my head was racing from everything I’ve got going on and I was on edge for no reason at all (to my family). You see, this is part of menopause and it’s time I stop trying to handle this on my own and get some professional help. I talked with a friend Friday who I’ve been knowing since I was 5 years old. We’ve been through a lot together, and we were just discussing our lives. I was telling her how I was feeling, we laughed at the situation and when we finished our conversation, I decided I was tired of feeling this way and I’m gonna make an appointment.
I was talking to my husband yesterday morning and he told me I sound like I may be battling some form of depression at this time. Who, me?? After I thought about it, I know it has to be menopause, the “thing” that my mom and other women her age didn’t like talking about. It was never discussed, just called “the change”. We are a different kind of woman today, the internet is our resource to everything. I will “google” something in a minute, but I can’t on this. I’m tired of being exhausted, hot, irritated and not feeling myself. Gotta bad case of the blues, mixed with a does of menopause.
One of the things I’m gonna try and do twice a week is just to get out of the house if it’s just to go around the corner. I need to get out especially before it gets too cold, but I’ll welcome that because I’m so hot all the time. I don’t like being in clothes, because my hot flashes are that bad. We went to the commissary yesterday afternoon and I had my window down and the sunroof open and I looked over and husband was complaining about how cold he was. It was 75 and beautiful, but we found a middle ground and rolled up the windows and left the roof open.
I’ve been going through this for the last three years, but the intensity of it has increased in the last six months. I’m researching hormone replacement therapy so I can ask about it when I go to the doctor. Pray for me ya’ll because I want to get back to where I was, get my energy, body temperature below 120 degrees, and stop feeling like the crazy lady.
I have a doctor’s appointment next Monday, so glad I took that step. You all don’t know how hard it was for me.