Today is a new day. I am feeling so much better, glad I finally went to the doctor. I’m getting back to the old me, happy, spirit filled, loving woman full of life. I miss that, and relationships of the past. My priority was for me to feel better, the rest will follow. The night sweats are better, I can tolerate them and I’m able to sleep better. My thoughts are clear, and I wonder why I thought I could go through menopause without any help.
I wanted to be strong, the woman who could do it without any help, tough it out. That was too much pressure, I had to do what was right for me. Why do women put so much pressure on themselves, to be perfect, superwoman and handle everything? Then when we fall, we hit hard. Well I’m glad I took that pressure off myself and my family.
I have one more test that I need to do, and hopefully I’ll get a clean bill of health….other than the weight I need to lose, but hey I can handle that. I got a flu and tetanus shot, mammogram and pap smear done. That other test….a colonoscopy, ugh. According to the timeline, a woman should get one at age 50. I won’t bore you with the details, but I’m gonna have the test done.
I love fall, it’s one of my favorite times of the year. Time to get apple cider, snuggies, booties and anything to help keep me warm. I also love going to the pumpkin farms, where they have the hayrides, pumpkins and games for the girls to play. Ok, so they are a little old for that, but we still love going. I’m ready to enjoy the season as this year turns the corner for the last quarter of 2012. This is the first tree I noticed that started turning colors, can’t wait for the others.
One thing I must remember is how precious life is and not take anything for granted. I’m so blessed to have this life and I should try to live it to the fullest. The adventures, trials, triumphs, whatever this journey brings, I must tackle it head on. Thank you Lord for keeping me! I’ll be back to my schedule next week. Have a great weekend.